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31st May 2012

Drummer helping daddy prototyping! Safety first!! (Taken with instagram)

20th May 2012

My Love! (Taken with instagram)

17th May 2012

Beautiful and clean studio at last! =] (Taken with instagram)

19th July 2011

My bittersweet escape!!

I don’t know what the fuck is wrong. I need you. And in it. So bad. My grip is so weak and I’m falling. But no matter what happens or who tries to help, nothing changes. Evil has a firm grasp on me. No matter what happens or what I do, it never leaves me. I need help. So badly. How come nothing is changing. I found one. One who makes everything disappear and puts me in a completely different and separate world. I can forget everything else. But for some reason I don’t think it’s what I need or where I should be. I want to run away but how can I when I’m stuck in this place. Will u take me away, change everythin, to what it’s supposed to be. I think I’m drowning. I’m overcome and no one is near to save me. Can you hear me calling for you?? Maybe by now your too far away, or maybe my cries are just too muffled!! Please, I beg of you, SAVE ME FROM THIS MESS. this heartache is just too much to bear on my own.

4th June 2011

Lonely thoughts

I’m soo glad no one reads this!! It’s been 7 months and I still get jealous. Why can’t I let u go. Seriously. Maybe it’s my fault, it’s a weakness I know. It’s fading. Slowly, but I guess that’s progress right?? I’ve been used and have used. But what now. I invested so much and yet I was the one who fucked it up. Maybe it wasn’t supposed to work out but I know it could have been but I think I’m better off without. Still my drug of choice but now I settle for the lesser. I shouldn’t need it, or you. It’s proven true everytime. The after never fulfills but yet I do out of habit. And you sir. I NEED you to be here. I’m always so happy and I know that it would be forever. But I must wait, something I’m not at all skilled. I need help but that one overpowers me. I guess I let him but in a world like this and a life lived like mine. I want it but can’t overcome. Help. So now I will stick to the cigarettes and sex, lies and lack of confidence. Just say it!!